Our secrets make us sick. Secrets breed fear of exposure. Secrets gnaw at our conscience. Secrets can breed anxiety, depression and stress.
I kept my adultery and my dabbling in pornography secret for decades. I taught teenagers in Sunday School. I sang in the choir. I was Charlie Churchgoer. But I shuddered in darkness when thoughts of my secrets engulfed me. I was Mr.Got-it-all-together outside; but inside I felt full of dead men’s bones and everything unclean. The worst kind of hypocrite.
Counseling with my pastor one day I confessed my secrets. Told him everything. As I unloaded my secrets, I felt an uneasy calm wash over me. Later I realized the uneasy calm was a new found freedom from the guilt and shame I felt when I kept those secrets.
After I brought my secrets out of the darkness into the light I experienced God’s peace and joy. His grace. I didn’t publicly announce my secrets. I chose a trusted compassionate, mentoring pastor to hear them.
I testify to you today that any secrets can destroy you. Sharing them however, exposing them to the light of God’s forgiveness can evaporate all the guilt and shame secrets cause.
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9